On Having No Friends
Usually it’s okay. The quiet is soothing, and I don’t have to worry about running out of things to say because I don’t have anything to say anyone to. I go out by myself, I don’t worry about having to cancel plans, it doesn’t matter if I do because I was doing it on my own to start with.
But sometimes it’s not okay. When the loneliness kicks in, when people I used to always wish were my friends are doing things together and god how I wish I could be a part of that. I’m never purposefully uninvited, or excluded or ignored, but the thought of joining in, trying to be social feels to me like someone scraping their fingers down a blackboard, like edges that don’t quite meet up evenly.
I literally do not have a single friend, and I’m sad.
Um, you can love your body even if you are thin and toned, it doesn’t make if any different. Honestly I think they’re both as bad as each other. Neither group is represented equally or accurately.
(Source: buddhalovingbadass, via emilyissherlocked)
Dreaming about the biggest mistake of my life on repeat for the last three nights has been fabulous, thanks for reminding me of my stupidity, brain.
this is the best thing in the entire world
she should greet jane as if nothing happened and see how jane reacts
she should avoid school the next day. And the next. Every night, she should put on the exact outfit she had on that day, hose herself down until she’s completely drenched and stand in Jane’s yard. When Jane is home alone, she should approach the window, staring at her. Knock on it if you don’t have her attention.
That’ll get her back for killing you and trying to hide the evidence.
liesihomo asked: F and R for the question thingy. I have no idea when you reblogged it so this might be like a year late, but anyways.
Only reblogged it yesterday so don’t fret.
F) My favourite movie: Love Actually. I never get tired of it.
R) My favourite song at the moment: Jessica Mauboy- Never be the same. I don’t really like that style of music much at all, but I just like that one song lol. She’s got a great voice.
Anonymous asked: j, f and h :)
J) What I want to be when I get older: I have no fucking clue. I’d like to get into professional horse riding but with no interest in the racing industry an no desire to do shows, it doesn’t leave much for me. Ideally I’d like to do Endurance riding as a professional sport, but it hasn’t really taken off that much here, and until it’s an olympic sport I’m not likely going to make any money from it. And it probably won’t ever be an olympic sport. So I’ll just continue to be broke and ride around aimlessly.
F) My favourite movie: Easily Love Actually. I never get tired of it.
H)I don’t smoke but I drink. Actually I planned to drink tonight and even went and bought diet coke to mix with my vodka, but I’m really lazy and don’t want to walk to the fridge to get it. So I’ll probably just be sober tonight.